Letting the Soil of your Soul Rest
Truth be told, I’ve been through a lot in the last few years. And personally, I need some time to recover. I want to let my soil rest for a while.
I’m taking some time off.
After making announcements everywhere else, email list, instagram, facebook, now it’s time to connect to my dear Substack
Some people call this a sabbatical and for ease that’s been the language I’ve been using. Inside myself this moment is really called a “Sacred Pause”.
I use the word sacred because it indicates that I treasure myself as a being. Which is true, I do. This is an incredibly loving decision.
I’ve been actively coaching since 2017 and creating, running and holding group programmes and online events since 2019. In the years prior to that, I was running an organisation dedicated to positive changing the lives of dozens of children and awesome young humans.
Everything overlapped. I never took a break.
I’m proud of the mastery that comes with guiding people through transformation journey’s and building a business to support the creative vision. Getting paid to positively impact people’s lives is a privilege. It’s rad.
In the last seven years I’ve worked with 100’s of beautiful humans, mainly women, and taught my classes and curriculum over 1000’s of hours. I think time on the mat building your skill at what you do is so deeply important. In a world of quick wins, these first seven years have been those early reps that matter so much.
Some of my clients stayed with me for the entire five years that I offered group programmes. They say things like it’s been a ride of a lifetime and they can’t imagine who they would have become without this work.
These need for a sacred pause has been humming inside me slowly over the past year. It was a kind yet effective life-altering deep-seated truth that made its way through me slowly. Like a wave.
A conversation between myself and myself a year ago would have witnessed me today and been full of fear. A part of her would feel this would be an impossible decision. Too much on the line. Too much at stake. Too much to loose.
I think that’s actually the perfect time to put something down. Because another part of me would have look at me today and said proudly, “you ballsy bitch, you did it. You put what was right for you above all else.”
Truth be told, I’ve been through a lot in the last few years. And personally, I need some time to recover. I want to let my soil rest for a while.
I don’t want to be one of these intense bitches that just goes, goes, goes and never takes a break.
I don’t want my inner soil, the landscape of my wellbeing, to be pillaged beyond recovery.
I want to honour the cycles of life and when it’s time to take a pause, really and truly respond to that need.
To me, the soil for me feels like my soul. It feels like I’m letting my soul breathe, rest and just be for a while.
I’m doing it and this is me learning how to do this in real-time. This is the walking and the talking that we speak so reverently of.
I have the absolute privilege of being able to return to be with one of my parents and to live close to the other parent.
Time is especially precious right now.
I am going to spend time in a place where I feel deeply safe.
I am going to spend time in my beloved nature.
I am going to take my time to close up all my projects.
I am going to give myself the privilege of taking my time even though there are pressures and things to figure out in many directions.
I am going to digest and process everything that went into this interation of my business and offering my gift to the world.
I am going to carefully look at what worked and what I believe didn’t.
I am going to digest and process everything that went into building a life in a new country and the cost of potentially walking away from that.
I do not have many answers.
But what I learn, I feel very excited to share as much as it feels true to do so here.
My substack will be my solace.
With love,
A resting soul, very much alive.
Let the soil rest mmmmm. It's fallow time 💚
Oh love that abundant pause in the true meaning. Love 💗